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   How is that?  I don't understand.. I mean I do, but I don't understand why....   Could it be that.. there's no way I should understand? :) oh.... it's.. it's so sad.. really.... I'm so sad that you are... but you don't believe me. You chose not to believe anything of what I said. I'm not saying you should have, I mean.. it's your right and choice to do whatever you like and choose.. You know I never did and I would never stand in the way of you happiness and well-fare , etc etc.  You know that..   Well what does it matter now? ..  Does it matter now?  :(  No, I don't think so..   But it's your choice again..   You see, I'm just a bit intrigued.  I can play myself. And I can play pretty well if I want to.   No, it's not, it was not the angry part. You don't know how I am lately (let alone how I feel - for you, especially, 'cause it's you I'm talking about) What should you know? 

  Isn't it you the righteous one now?...   I was just wondering... isn't it you? Oh yes, you.. who else?.. Oh my God... You have everything. . SO?... What should I do?  Cry and beg you to stay (with me, you know the song) ?  I've already done that.. I've told you to stay so many times.. told you I loved you so many times.. I've told you I was sorry for so many times because I knew I was wrong -maybe not then, but something inside told me I was gonna be wrong...  And you could not forgive me.. I don't see why.. I told you I was stupid.. Am I just stupid? Yeah, i guess I am... but I really don't mind... :) It's just me...

Eu. Toata lumea se gandeste doar la "eu" :) Eu fac, eu dreg, eu cred, eu ma c*c si asa mai departe. Dar de ce sa fie numai Eu? De ce sa nu fie, macar o data, tu?  De ce sa nu fie tu faci, tu te..  Da, poate ca ai dreptate, poate ca sunt inconstienta si poate am fost mereu. Poate am crezut prea mult..(ca va fi bine) sau din contra, poate nu am crezut. Nu am stiut ce sa cred.. dar mai mult ca sigur am crezut, am crezut orbeste, ca proasta. Am crezut fara sa vad si sa aud..   Revin la inconstienta: de ce nu vii sa ma trezesti din inconstienta mea?... Macar sa o faci.. Macar sa o fac... :( :) Sunt doar un om, nu crezi?  Si eu am nevoie de ajutor si de trezire.. de trezvie. M-ai lasat atata timp on my own, cum se zice, pentru ca se potriveste mai bine decat 'singura' (Daca tot ai facut-o de ce nu ti-ai asumat decizia? De ce nu ai acceptat consecintele?...) - si acum ai pretentia sa alerg in bratele tale??.. Mmda.  Si eu papusa cui oi fi?   Iti spun...

  Da. Mi-ai pasat-o inapoi. Te-ai gandit bine si ai pus-o in cui sau ai aruncat-o exact in inima mea. Nu stiam ca arunci asa de bine.. :)  Esti cool, ca de obicei.. numai de n-ai fi atat de rece :). Ai facut bine pana la urma. Cine ar mai fi stat cu o dragoste ca a noastra (indraznesc sa spun) fada, rece, proasta.. si divina in acelasi timp? Cine ar sta cu o dragoste fara finalitate? Nimeni.. Nici macar eu . Ai avut dreptate.     Am obosit si eu si m-am plictisit si iarasi am obosit.. din cauza ei.. Nu o mai suport. De ce trebuie sa o suport in fiecare zi, cand e asa de nesuportat?.. Moarte, chin, durere.. oare se vor duce vreodata?   Urma mea, urma ta.. in sufletul meu. Asta zice ca nu se va duce. E mai bine asa. E ceea ce stim. Dar oare vom sti vreodata?    Noapte O pasare cu o singura aripa si cu aripa transformata in lant, o pasare cu o aripa ramasa sa spere si alta pe care o taraste in zbor, o pasare-mi trece noaptea prin somn si di...